DEAR PRETTY BOY SUNDAY: NOTHING HAPPENS UNTIL SOMETHING MOVES

Josh,

I want to start off by thanking you for being the only one responding to an email sent to several others as well.  Beats hearing, "We've been having problems with our emails,"

when showing up with hard copies.

On Friday, October 24, 2014 5:25 PM, Josh Amerson <JoshA@glennumc.org> wrote:

James, 

I'm not sure if one of Arkansas' candidates for governor will be able to help or hear you, but my offer to meet in the Village for coffee still stands. Let me know if that would suit you. 

-josh

And yes, 

I want to agree with you, 

highly unlikely a candidate for Governor of Arkansas will respond to this email from me addressed to a relative; 

the rest of you being sent copies as witnesses.  

Josh, 

" I would be happy to meet with you at one of the Emory Village restaurants to pray and to listen, but that is all I am able to offer you at this time. Again, to avoid a possibly damaging altercation, let me caution you that the staff here is aware of the restraining orders against you by Emory and Glenn Memorial and will have to call Emory Police should you come on campus again."

 Try and think of this email as a prayer; but one having the potential,

 however unlikely, 

of

being answered.

Nothing happens until something moves. 

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I genuinely do need some help with getting everyone one the same page with our story's; a reset before I can address my Crystal meths addiction properly.  

For two and half year, I did really good in spite of this feud going on between me and the family of G. Robert Gary, SR. ThD.;  completely walled in and cut off from society by bias, prejudice, perniciousness, prevarications, "LOVE(money/loyalty) STRONGER THAN JUSTICE", and even reverse "ELDERS ABUSE" by my own Mother due to a learned helplessness know as "Unipolar Depression".  All of this only because of a realization that if anyone was going to perform my drug addiction intervention, cared enough, that person was going to have to be me."

"I just GOT to believe in SOMETHING.  I JUST GOT TOO!"

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"IF YOU WANT TO SEE THE TRUTH; YOU ARE GOING TO HAVE TO JUMP."

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"With each day I love you more."

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A reason wanting to live: Hope for a future without the possibility of a long term(?)companion.

If it's true, "truth will set you free", then I'm unable seeing any reason why I shouldn't take everyone down with me when taking that leap.

What's wrong with two less lonely people in the world?"

This IS my version of Christ/Anti-Christ; a world where it is decided that James Edward Avery, Doctor of Veterinary Medicine, gets to continue living...

or not?

"Why! You're putting yourself in place of Jesus!"

~(My Mother)~

"That's right... MOTHER.  I'm following in the footsteps of Jesus of Nazareth the only way I'm best able figuring out how."

~(Simply Jim:  One Pearl, Total Pig,  Anti-Christ)~ 

"A good man, as well as a good woman this day and age, is not without sin; they admit, then expiate."

Well not at my expense!  

Not without me signing off on it first!

"MANIPULATION AND DECEPTION ELIMINATES THE POSSIBILITY OF CONSENT."

As it is not entirely, my fault, OUR STORY IS SUCH AN IMPORTANT PART OF MY STORY, a difficult story to tell: IT'S NOT GOSSIP IF TRUE: How does one go ask for help if not sure where to begin? 

I can stop the crystal meths!  Just need a support group, a reason, hope for the future motivating me to stay off  of it.  As with any true addiction, there will always be a craving that remains and the potential for relapse; the reason for the addiction in the first place.   

What I need, 

everyone and/or anyone actually, helping me get off the crystal meths (TINA) is attention... spread evenly over time: jail not the answer for anyone if we are all to be sinners; even for drug dealers or cartel leaders South of the border. 

THE TRUEST EXAMPLE OF AMERICA'S CAPITALISM/EXCEPTIONALISM AT IT'S FINEST. 

To think any differently, 

then you are the greatest part of the problem than any attempt at a solution that honest, fair, and reasonable to all.

Please, 

do not hold against me, the fact that crystal meths is illegal.  This would only be bias, both survivors and confirmation, as well as manipulation and deception eliminating the possibility of consent.  But what can I do?  Crystal meths addiction is the addiction all other addictions look down on; 

just another justification.  

I am no more a sinner than those worshiping a God 

that's been 

GOLD PLATED!   

Attention + Time = Distraction

 (again, anyone for any addiction)

I will take any activities members of your churches willing to offer unconditionally; church related or not. Cheering for the Braves, enjoying the outdoors, birthdays, family gatherings, etc.  ANYTHING! And this would require us needing an opportunity getting to know each other better first, especially you of me; 

already preformed opinions having some knowledge of me without all the facts even if true.

The Danger of the Single Story?

The first time, 

my place as this is the best place for you to understand the addiction clearest; 

one hour at least of your time...

is all I ask. 

 If the answer is no; 

only fair to all of us and not just me, the reason why. 

 I'm good at conjectures without all the facts; even information that can be doubtful.

I do know the difference between-- conclusions, conjectures, and "an instance of the finger post."

Then we introduce me to your congregations before letting them decide themselves, individually +/- small(?)large groups, as they are not all the same.

"DO NOT CONCLUDE UNTIL UNDERSTANDING.  

ONCE UNDERSTANDING, 

DO NOT JUDGE."

However...

"You can not be neutral on a moving train."

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"One person trauma is another's lost of innocence."

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Manipulation and deception eliminates the possibility of consent."

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The Priority of True Worship 

(John 4:23-24) 

All true worshipers are sincere, but all sincere worshipers are not true.

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"Worship 

for me 

is 

an inner attitude and feeling 

of 

awe, reverence, gratitude, and love 

toward 

g(zero)d 

resulting from a realization 

of 

who ~(6!9)~  is

 and 

who WE are."

With ~(6!9)~ being me and everything that has been downloaded into my brain.  EVERYTHING.  The brain forgets nothing.  This would be Carl Jung's Collective Unconsciousness +  Einstein's E = MC2(memories, MEME, CHRIST, nature, experiences, education, etc.  )...GOD.  

Far as I'm concerned, there are as many GODS as there are people who claim to believe in GOD.  Well I do not believe in a GOD, but I am able having a personal relationship with Jesus without having to believe in the divinity of Jesus.  See no reason why Jesus of Nazareth can't remain a prophet the same as Mohammad.

I'm understanding this to be the "sixth sense". Maybe Muga-Mushin also.  Not sure if they are one and the same yet; but we experience this spirituality differently.  Very important understanding my first 18 years within the Methodist Church small town Prescott, Arkansas... hearing impaired...and since.  

"Experience is just nature cruel way of giving the test first followed by it's lesson."

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"HOW DO YOU KNOW WHERE I"M GOING IF YOU DON"T KNOW WHERE I'VE ALREADY BEEN?"

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THE SIXTH SENSE

With "WE" being not just the humankind, nor even limited to mammals:  Just as much the rights as part of God's Glory; although not to everyone.

There is no such thing as:

FREE FROM LOVE OF MONEY!  NOT IN AMERICA, AT LEAST, ANYWAY! 

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Either everything is a miracle; or nothing is a miracle.

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THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS ARTIFICIAL LIFE!  THIS AND ONLY THIS IS THE ILLUSION OF... 

"God's Glory."  

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